My name is Frank.
I’ve been on crutches for little less than 24 hours.
I got very little enthusiasm right now.
I have a lot of days to go before I can walk again without needing crutches.
I’m trying to keep my head up.
My friends are trying to help me fight back and train my upper body.

I’ve been an endurance athlete for the past 9 Months. I’ve completed 1 Triathlon & 3 Relay Triathlons, 1 Marathon and 1 Half Marathon.
I started running back in June 2011 a month and a half before my ex relationship ended and used it to get through all of the negative thoughts I had about it.
I’m guessing I used running to keep it all at bay? I’m not sure I haven’t really thought about it for months and now I’m stuck on crutches where I can barely walk.
I’m trying to understand this and accept it but it is hard. I almost feel like pushing everyone away and just ignoring it all. I feel like I can’t face people because I can’t prove that I can run from here to the moon and back.

2 Days ago I tried to go running thinking my tight calf could manage and it did for 25 minutes straight felt great. I just wanted 30 min run that’s all. The next second I realized….a sharp pain in my achillies and was forced to stop. Tried walking it off but it just burned. Went to the hospital yesterday and found that I had a small tear. It would take a few weeks for it to heal and now I’m unsure of what I can do instead.

Now I feel a bit useless because I have to walk everywhere. I can’t do much for a few weeks. I hate this so much.

Running is all I got.
What now?

-Day 0-